There has never been a greater love
Than Your son
No, Not one
And there will never be a name above
No, Not one
With His life You have forgiven us
Hope has come
Hope has come
And there will never be a greater love
No, Not one
Love this song right now. I finally broke down and bought Christy Nockels Life Light Up CD [I saw her at two concerts I went to this year]. This particular song just makes me happy.
But honestly, driving around and listening to it today, I felt like such a hypocrite. My attitude stinks right now! And I mean s-t-i-n-k-s. Here is this worshipful music, and my heart feels so far from the words in all of the songs. I don't feel worshipful in the least.
Truth: I'm exhausted. And I'm cranky. There are quite a few things at work right now that make me super mad. A lot of the time. And I'm trying to learn how to handle them - in a Christlike way. It's tough, and I'm getting worn thin. But as I was sitting at church on Sunday feeling out of sorts, I realized that I've been so incredibly busy the last month and a half that I haven't even had any sort of "quiet time." In other words, any time just to reflect and read the Bible and pray. Sure, I say prayers, but they're quick and frantic in between one task and another. It's certainly not restful, and I leave no room to really listen to what God has to say. How can I handle an incredibly stressful, frustrating job and all of the other busy things I have going on if I don't refill spiritually? Well, I can't. And my temper and attitude this week has proven that. I'm not operating out of the heart of Christ at all - I'm definitely operating out of the flesh, i.e., my sin nature.
I know what I need to do to fix it. Unfortunately, I find myself stubbornly resisting because, honestly, it seems easier and more satisfying to remain angry & cranky sometimes.
But honestly, driving around and listening to it today, I felt like such a hypocrite. My attitude stinks right now! And I mean s-t-i-n-k-s. Here is this worshipful music, and my heart feels so far from the words in all of the songs. I don't feel worshipful in the least.
Truth: I'm exhausted. And I'm cranky. There are quite a few things at work right now that make me super mad. A lot of the time. And I'm trying to learn how to handle them - in a Christlike way. It's tough, and I'm getting worn thin. But as I was sitting at church on Sunday feeling out of sorts, I realized that I've been so incredibly busy the last month and a half that I haven't even had any sort of "quiet time." In other words, any time just to reflect and read the Bible and pray. Sure, I say prayers, but they're quick and frantic in between one task and another. It's certainly not restful, and I leave no room to really listen to what God has to say. How can I handle an incredibly stressful, frustrating job and all of the other busy things I have going on if I don't refill spiritually? Well, I can't. And my temper and attitude this week has proven that. I'm not operating out of the heart of Christ at all - I'm definitely operating out of the flesh, i.e., my sin nature.
I know what I need to do to fix it. Unfortunately, I find myself stubbornly resisting because, honestly, it seems easier and more satisfying to remain angry & cranky sometimes.
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